I am not lazy
I just feel dead
I am not crazy
I really do hear voices in my head.
I am not chocking
I just choose not to breathe
It wasn’t an accident
I actually want to bleed.
I hate when I miss you
Because I know I don’t exist
I know you’d look at me like a fool
To be honest my ignorance is bliss.
I stare in the mirror for hours
just to pretend Im not alone
I have conversations with my reflection
It tells me to swallow the phone.
So my heart can call you
Because it wants to say hi
But I know once I do this
all you will hear is me die.
“White Flag”
Or tell you that.
But if I didn’t say it, well I’d still have felt it
where’s the sense in that?
I promise I’m not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused nothing but trouble
I understand if you can’t talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of “it’s over”
then I’m sure that that makes sense
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I’m sure we will
All that was there
Will be there still
I’ll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I’ve moved on….
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won’t put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I’m in love and always will be
“Prison Sex”
I was so young and vestal then,
you know it hurt me,
but I’m breathing so I guess I’m still alive
even if signs seem to tell me otherwise.
I’ve got my hands bound,
my head down , my eyes closed,
and my throat wide open.
Do unto others what has been done to you
I’m treading water,
I need to sleep a while.
My lamb and martyre, you look so precious.
Won’t you come a bit closer,
close enough so I can smell you.
I need you to feel this,
I can’t stand to burn too long.
Released in this sodomy.
For one sweet moment I am whole.
Do unto you now what has been done to me.
You’re breathing so I guess you’re still alive
even if signs seem to tell me otherwise.
Won’t you come just a bit closer,
close enough so I can smell you.
I need you to feel this.
I need this to make me whole.
There’s release in this sodomy.
For I am your witness that
blood and flesh can be trusted.
And only this one holy medium brings me piece of mind.
Got your hands bound, your head down,
your eyes closed.
You look so precious now.
I have found some kind of temporary sanity in this
shit blood and cum on my hands.
I’ve come round full circle.
My lamb and martyr, this will be over soon.
You look so precious.
“Come To Me”
Come to me
I’ll take care of you
Protect you
Calm, calm down
You’re exhausted
Come lie down
You don’t have to explain
I understand
You know
That I adore you
You know
That I love you.
So don’t make me say it
It would burst the bubble
Break the charm.
Jump off
Your building’s on fire
And I’ll catch you, I’ll catch you
Destroy all that is keeping you down
And then i’ll nurse you
I’ll nurse you
I’ll protect you
You know
That I adore you
You know
That I love you.
So don’t make me say it
It would burst the bubble
Break the charm.
Her final breath belongs to me
Her beautiful death only I can see
Holding her as she gets so cold
witnessing her story as it unfolds.
She’s mine and always will be
Her smiles and her tears
Her excitments and her fears
All of this belongs to me.
For every heart beat she lost
it was one i had gained
never have I felt so loved
never have I felt such pain.
Grim came in the wind
and blew her away like a feather
Death comes to all
but together we shall live forever.
Lasvin Bou
